외로워 | ME DAY

today is one of those days when my friends all have stuff to do and i'm all alone. not that it's a bad thing, i actually like being alone sometimes :) i noticed that i have a pattern on my "me days" so, since i'm free till 1pm, i thought i might as well blog. i have a few posts lined up and i just can't wait to be done with them. procrastinating is so bad T.T

BEFORE i post those posts though, i'll post about stuff that i've been thinking of this morning :)

i was all alone in my room this morning because my roommate left for class and i was like YASSS. i love fridays because i have no classes and my bitchy roommate does, so i have the room all to myself ^^ i'm free to listen to music and relax all by myself. so i woke up and the first thing i did was to read ff. lol. i didn't notice that this was a routine thing that i did, but for the past few me-days, i started them off by reading. in my last me-day i read a xiuchen fic, but for today its a sukai fic. kaisoo will forever be my fave kai pairing but sukai is #2 ^^. while i was reading i felt kinda lonely though. not because i was alone, but because i was...err...alone. not alone as in without company, but as in alone alone in life? i'm beating around the bush lol. its just that i don't wanna say the s word. its taboo from now on onwards! so far i like being alone but i can't help but have those days when i feel like i want to experience the warmth of being embraced, the feeling of having your hand held and to have your heart pound in sync with someone else's. the fic i was reading was nice but it didn't help at all T.T it just made me want ti be hugged so more T.T *i ended up hugging my pillow*. i'm just...so afraid of being judged. every time i feel like i'm ready to talk about it to my friends, something always happens and they judge other people, so i know that they wouldn't take it very nice, and i'm...not ready so...

after reading, i decided to eat breakfast. i usually DON'T eat breakfast *even from when i was in high school*, but its kinda grown to be one of my me-day routines. i make exceptions lol. i usually have music play, make milo and eat biscuits. then i just chill. today i decided to cut my super long nails and do some buffing. i want to try this olive oil hand treatment i saw in one of Bubz' videos but since i don't, i'll have to settle for my normal hand cream. maybe i'll try it back home in Ipoh~

i have an extra class later T.T as much as it pains me, i have to go~ at least my friends and i are going to the beach afterwards to play volleyball! ^^ it's been so long since i last played and i'm super excited. since we'll be playing around sunset, i hope i'll be able to take a few nice photos.

ps. last night was Jane's birthday and we watched Penguins of Madagascar. it was awesome.

pps. my music today started very depressing (Diego Luna's I Love You Too Much, Gaggong Rapper's Kung Sino Pa, Goo Hye Sun's I Don't Know Anything But Love, Kim Tae Woo's ost from a drama that i forgot the title), but i like that iTunes' shuffle is now on happy songs lol (A Pink's LUV, Wanting's Drenched, J-Min's Stand Up, B.A.P's Dancing in the Rain *speaking of B.A.P, stay strong! #ForeverWithBAP*)

ppps. tomorrow my Kimberley will be in Penang and I might go and see her! *i hope i do get to see her + take a selca with her*. after that my friends and i are going to a music festival! it's gonna be something new so i'm really looking forward to it ^^

thanks for reading! ^^